Monday, April 22nd, 2013

Hello Dollies and Gents!

I hope you woke up with a smile on your face and a thankfulness to the world that your eyes opened this morning. Today’s motivational video comes from MuscleProdigyTV on youtube. Off the bat though, a little warning, it is a little hard to hear the words behind the music. The music is a little too loud. So you will have to pay a little more attention. Yet the intensity is there. I love seeing bodybuilding men. Not necessarily because I think they are hot, which that much muscle kinda doesn’t really turn me on, but because it amazes me what the mind and body can create. It amazes me to see how men can commit to something so hard and accomplish it with hard work and dedication. It’s art.

One of the things that got triggered for me is about failing and trying again, not giving up. As I have mentioned before weight loss never stops for people who were as overweight as I was. For people, like me, that food has become a drug. It is an endless battle that I fight every single day. Every single day I have to say no to a million things, especially when I am out and about.

I have had to come to terms with my own mini failures as well. There have been meals, in which not only did I not eat healthy, but also lacked the will to go and work-out. Time in which I spent endlessly hating myself for being sedentary, instead of doing what I know its right. Those have been my failures. Before my failures used to be driving through the McDonalds drive-thru or eating a slice of cake. Each time though, that I did fail, that I did not stay true to what I knew was best for my body I would get up again and try again. I have not given up. It is harder to give up now that I am thinner, but even when I was at 210lbs and had eaten that cookie I wasn’t supposed to, I didn’t give up. I didn’t give up on my diet, on my exercise, on myself, and to those I was committed to. I picked myself from that floor I had thrown myself onto and tried again.

I tried so many times and failed so many times, but here I am now, 85 lbs. later. Will the failures stop now? Will I always follow my rules of being at the gym at least 5 times a week and eating a clean diet? I believe I will, but I know that if I do fail it will not stop me. I will not lay there and be trampled by failures. I will have the integrity and courage to get up and get back on my feet. I will be different. I will learn and as long as the getting up part is one more than the failure part I will be ok. I will be great. I will not be a sheep, I choose to fight, live and not die. I choose to live the life I want.

Next time you fail, next time you have that chocolate you weren’t supposed to, next time you make the choice not to go to the gym, just know you just need to get back up again. Make your courage stronger than your fear. Be who you were meant to be. Be different, be unique, be you.

xoxo,

Bianca

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